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亚洲淡泊与女性叙事

文/马里奥

作者系美国前演员，作家，投资人，油画收藏人

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作为一个有着菲律宾血统的亚洲后裔，成长于美国的第三代移民，对于亚洲的印象，我是在童年若有若无的感知中体会的。

在加州漫长的海岸线中，我成长，从一个亚洲移民到今天的美国公民。但亚洲的基因，还是根深蒂固地烙印在我生命的痕迹中。

三岁看老，一个人的成长，乃至他/她成长之后的成就，事实上，早在童年就略有征兆。

我不知道雪娴女士，是在怎样的海岸线环境中成长起来的，但认真观察她博客上的图片，似乎或有征兆。

潮汕是一个独特的地方，有一种穿透前卫和与世隔绝的美感，这或许能把我带回，我从未没有去过的故土菲律宾，虽然那或许是我爸爸的故乡。

菲律宾也有着绮丽的海岸线，虽然我从未去过，也没有在梦境中得以穿越过去。

很感谢雪娴女士的画作，能带给我这种亚洲特质的穿越感，这种感受在日本海岸线、东南亚海岸线与中国潮州都能找到同种特质的一脉相承。

那种不同于中国江南水乡的海岸线气质，那种属于亚洲共性的迷离海岸线气质。

曾经我父亲有一条渔船，每次他出海之时，我站在岸边眺望，那种海天相连的紧密关系和唇齿相依的特质。

要说梦境，我的梦境时刻有这样的船帆，还有受海岸线熏陶所形成的对食物的偏好与选择。

文学、艺术和收藏是共通的，有你们中国人说的六脉神剑的犀利畅快。

而换成我们老外的表达方式，就是有趣，令人着迷。

但沉迷之前，是需要对文化背景有所洞见的，中国文化源远流长，我们很难寻找独特的解剖面。无论是纵向的，还是横向的，都很难寻找角度。

作为一个活跃在20世纪80年代末90年代初的美国电视剧演员，我有着喜爱观赏亚洲节目的习惯。我观看过很多亚洲的电影，一部名为《黄昏清卫兵》的日本电影令我记忆深刻，我在片中看出了女性叙述的淡泊与执着。

也许读懂了女性叙事的逻辑，你可以从女性的逻辑中得以洞见亚洲的淡泊和女性的叙事，也就明了了亚洲文明的缘起。

黄昏清兵卫源自日本著名小说家藤泽周平(Shuuhei Fujisawa)的短篇小说，在这里始终没有宏大的叙事，没有武侠味和阳刚味，但在人情细腻处有着大量的长短镜头。

熟悉又含蓄的怀旧情感，是镜头可以表达的，也是油画可以表达的。

很欣喜的是，我在陈雪娴女士的文字中看到了这种熟悉又含蓄的怀旧情感，她的画面清丽淡雅，很多场景却大量留白，主线并不复杂，干净和利落，有着别样的女性特质。

 人生其实并不苦。当我们蓦然回首，“苦”已化为尘埃，诚如“黄昏清兵卫”里的井口清兵卫看似辛苦，但拥有一双听话贴心的女儿和一直心仪自己的青梅竹马，有缺憾的人生却相形幸运。

同样，从陈雪娴的油画中，我品味出一丝悲悯，淡泊之下的细节悲悯，无论是她山谷之下的人家，还是红尘之中的小花小芽，陈女士都以独特的女性视角赋予它们以活力与仙气。

Asian indifferent and female narrative

Author/Mario Mendoza

American actor, writer, investor, oil collector

pic1: 花开富贵（陈雪娴作品）

  As a Philippines descent of Asian descent, I grew up in the United States the third generation immigrants. For the Asian impression, I am in the perception of childhood experience not much, if any. In the long coastline of California, I grew up, from an Asian immigrant to the United States today, but the genes of Asia are still deeply imprinted in the traces of my life. From three year old, we look at the end for a person's growth, and even after the success of her growth. In fact, as early as childhood on a slight sign. I don't know how Ms. Xuexian grew up in a coastal environment, but it seems to be a sign of a serious look at the pictures on her blog.

  Chaozhou, Shantou is a unique place. There is a penetrating avant-garde and isolated beauty. This may bring me back, I had never been to the home of Philippines, although it may be my father's hometown. Philippines also has a beautiful coastline, although I have never been to, nor in the dream to cross over. Thanks very much for the Ms. Xuexian, which brings me the sense of Asia, which can be found in Japan, Chaozhou and Southeast Asia. That is different from the China Jiangnan coastline temperament, that belongs to the Asian common coastline blurred temperament.

  Once my father has a fishing boat. Every time he went to sea when I stood on the shore looking. That close relationship between sea and sky and be closely related and mutually dependent characteristics. To dream, my dream is that the moment, there are affected by the influence of the coastline on food preferences and choices. Literature, art and collection is common, have you Chinese said Six Meridian Swords sharp fun. And the expression of our foreign people is interesting and fascinating. But before indulging, need some insight on the cultural background, China culture has a long history, it is very difficult for us to find a unique view. Whether it is vertical, or horizontal, all are very difficult to find the direction.

  As one of the most active at the end of 1980s and early 90s American TV actor. I love to watch the Asian program habit. I watched many Asian films, a film called 《Twilight Qing guards》Japanese film that I remember. I see the female narrative of indifferent and persistent in the film. We may read the female narrative logic, you can insight into Asia and women from the indifferent female logic to the narrative. Will clear the origin of Asian civilizations.

  《Twilight Qing guards》from the famous Japanese novelist Shuuhei Fujisawa’s short stories. Here is no grand narrative, no martial arts taste and masculine taste, but there are a lot of the length of the lens in the human delicate. Familiar and subtle nostalgia, the lens can be expressed, but also oil paintings can be expressed.

  I’m so happy, because I saw the familiar and subtle feeling of nostalgia in the Ms. Xuexian text. Her pictures are beautiful and elegant, but many scenes a lot of space. The main line is not complicated, clean and neat, have a different kind of femininity.

  Life is not bitter. When we look back, "bitter" has turned into dust.  As 《Twilight Qing guards》, but Iguchi Qing samurai has two obedient daughter also had admired his childhood sweetheart. It is lucky to have regrets in life.

  In the same way, from the Ms. Xuexian oil painting I taste out of compassion and indifferent under details. Whether her family or the valley below, the bustling place flowers bud. Ms. Xuexian gives the unique female perspective to them vitality and fairies.

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